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2009: Calm Before the Storm...

Okey, so I haven't been blogging for a while now.. I guess I've always thought of this blog as a "tool" for me to speak of the blessings I receive. And lately I've been receiving more trials rather than blessing. (You can hear my immaturity and irritation, don't you?)

I've realised now that it's not always the good things that happen in your life that should be shared but also the bad. I know that one day when I look back to this blog, I will see how much I have improved and matured by acknowledging my strengths and weaknesses, my successes and failures.

Anyways, back to the 'now.' So we've entered a new year now.. 2009, the year of Revayah (fulfullment). But so far, day 13 of it has proven more difficulty than last year. (I'll get on to the difficulties soon.)

First off, for New Years I didn't go to see the fireworks or anything like that. I simply went to church with my family. I guess I wasn't really expecting much. I thought it would be just another church service. But the church services leading up to New Years and the New Years church service, actually the sermons, were teaching me about again SURRENDERANCE, FAITH, TRUST, HOPE. The last sermon I listened to in 2008, titled: 'Do Not Fear' was about the birth of Christ. And I knew the story back to front but what the Pastor was teaching and revealing to me during the last sermon of 2008 was 2 things:

1. Mary: (Luke 1: 26) Fear not, for we are appointed by Him. Do not be afraid of those that harm us for He provides, nothing is impossible for Him. Those highly favoured by Him will endure strange things but don't fear. When He plans great things in your life, there is great sacrifice! There is no crown without a cross. Don't be afraid with all you face (Mary to give birth when not married) but she was not afraid. Don't try to give Him ideas as to what He must do in your life. For as Mary said 'Be unto me as you ahev said.' => For it is your plan let it be done => TOTAL SURRENDERANCE.

2. Joseph (Matthew 1:18-25) God doesn't need to be ordered around. There are alot of things that we plan into detail but then it's ruined, gone. But don't be afraid for He has taken your plan and turned it tino His. He took your desires and made them HIS => DON'T BE AFRAID, no matter how much your plans are/have been stuffed up -> be still and stay with God=> He is preparing for the best, for He is in control-> wait in faith.

Luke 12: 22-34 -> For it is His pleasure to give us His Kingdom.

The most important thing I had learnt from this sermon and have now applied it into my own life is Joseph. He had planned out his life to be a certain way. He wanted to do this and that, etc. But instead God gave him something else. Something that was not part of his plan. He was even going to stray away from God's plan and stick to his own, but I've learnt that when God has planned it no one can change it.

I've learnt here that all this time I've planning and making things happen for myself and I didn't see that God is telling me that He is taking my plans and dreams, desires and moulding them into His. He is asking me to be faithful, to trust Him and to surrender my free will into Him.

This had hit me like a lightening bolt. Here I am approaching the day I'm to leave for Jakarta. I don't know exactly what I'm to do. My priority is to do work experience but it doesn't seem to be falling into play. And then after hearing this sermon I knew that God was telling me that He has planned greater things for me and my time in Jakarta.

At the moment, my parents and friends are asking me about the work experience. I simply I don't know what to answer them. But I know in my heart and by faith that whatever will happen in Jakarta will happen because He has taken my plans and turned them into His, just as He did with Joseph.

I will trust Him!

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posted by tephiee @ 11:35 AM