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Amazing!!!

Crazy week!!! The crazy climax started to build from Wednesday, it peaked on Thursday and on Friday I knew why these things were happening and by Saturday everything had been "confirmed."

So I'm in my final week of uni for this semester. It has been crazy! (I know I've repeated it a few times now but seriously it has been CRAZY!)

[Recap]
Wednesday: I had to work on my group TV story/assignment. Had experienced some troubles with the edits. Went off to work on my radio story/assignment. I was in the editing room alone and was just stressing out. I decided to write on my Facebook status about needing His hands to help me through these difficult times. And immediately I had received a post from my cousin. She sent me the verse Zec 4:6 which says it is not by my own strength but by the Spirit I can do all things. After reading that my Spirit was lifted. My mind was renewed. I knew that I could do all things because He was guiding me. So I survived that day with that verse.

Thursday: Went off to edit TV story/assignment. Again having troubles. I think it's just the story is not fitted to "tv." It was hard looking for relevant footage to use. And by this time I had been panicking. I had a 3000 word essay, 1 radio story and 1 tv story to do within the next week! I was afraid I wouldn't be able to do it.

I called my tutor about my essay and asked for an extension. And Praise Him I got it. S I didn't have to worry too much about that for now.

So by that time I went off to work on my radio story. I was mildly calm at this point. I was working on my radio script.

Friday: Went to shoot more footage for my tv story/assignment. Again I didn't feel confident about this story. I really didn't feel confident about journalism as a whole by this point. Went off to work on radio story again until 6pm. I was pretty happy with my radio so far. So I went to church (KG) at 7pm on Friday. But I was tempted to go home and rest. I was pretty tired by this stage. But my heart and Spirit was telling me to go to His temple and seek His face in times of difficulty. So I forced myself to go despite my body telling no!

But it was awesome!! I knew immediately why I was there at church after being so tired. From the praise and worship I knew He was telling me something. That was:
- the praise and worship leader said that God had spoke to her about 'stirring' the congregation. I knew that God was telling me that I needed to stir my Spirit in these times. In times of when I feel down, tired and stressed.
- I needed to come back to Him. I need to stop getting busy with uni work and don't use excuses to "run away" from Him.
- God is serious and was drawing me back to Him.
- We had sung a song where the lyrics read: "open up the skies, fall down like rain. We don't want blessings, we want you. Open up the skies, fall down like fire. We don't want anything but you."
- That song made me and my Spirit realise that really nothing else matters in this world except Him. We live not to impress other people but to impress Him!
- All this time I've been stressing and worrying about my life, my uni and the things around me that causes me to be distracted from what is really important, which is Him.

The most important thing I had learnt that Friday was that He was reminding me of His work in me. That my "journalism" was for His gospel. He didnt't want me to do things in mainstream media but do it for His Kingdom. He told me that the things that I do at uni are only preparations for what He has prepared for me. And I will be experiencing more "setback" (worldly view) in my "journalism" just so God can show me that really my life is not in "journalism" for the world but "journalism" for Him.

He definitely was reminding me of my place in His plan. And I needed to be secure in that and not be swayed with circumstances.

I ended that night with an even clearer vision, a stronger Spirit and a hopeful and expectant heart for what lies ahead...

posted by tephiee @ 10:17 PM