Wake, Wake, Wake Up Steph!
Recently I have been reminded of my "vision" to be working in a magazine... I thought 'why have I been wasting all this time on nothing, when I could have been investing in work experience?' So I texted a friend of mine who's uncle is a magazine editor. I asked her how the magazine was going etc. I thought to myself, yeah I'll give the editor a call later on...Well, that "later on" never came around (to tell you the truth, I was unmotivated to call) until today... I was at the RTA, getting my proof of age card. While I was waiting, from afar I thought I saw the above mentioned magazine editor. I thought, 'no its not him...' but then I heard his "signature voice" (a voice that from a mile away i could tell was his)
At this time, I was thinking 'Steph, this is your moment, go up and talk to him' But then the other side of me was 'dude, this is not the time nor place to approach him'. So before you know it, I was at a war with myself...!!! Should I or should I not?!
I thought that 'God plans everything. He even planned and knows if I strand of hair falls off my head. How could God not plan this "meeting" at the RTA?!'
But of course, its the little whispers in me that always stop me from stepping up and stepping out... until the time came that it was not me who stepped out but he did (the editor)... he stepped out of the RTA and there was my opportunity walking out the door...
And a gush of resentment rained on me...My opportunity to meet face to face was out the door... and I didn't realise the extent of this hasty decision until I got home...
*pause this story*
So I was asked to preach for Christmas at Kids Church next week.What the?! Yes, that's what I thought! I'm thinking 'I'm quite young, and not as experienced as other teachers. Why me?!' But hey, through recent experiences (as you can see from my previous posts) who am I to say no to these things/experience!' So I took it up!
I was reading the selected passage from the Bible. Its from Luke 19: 11-27. Its about the parable of the ten minas. To summarise the passage:
*money in the form of "talents"
*the master gave money to three of his servants
*told them to make good use of it while he is away
*the first 2 servants made very good use of the money (talents) and make more money
*the last (3rd) servant just wrapped his money in a cloth and laid it away
While, I was reading this passage, a revelation was revealed to me... This 3rd servant was me! I was afraid to show what I have been entrusted with... I have just received it (my talent) and hid it away from everyone to see... Just like I was afraid to approach the magazine editor...
I'd prefer to be like the 3rd servant and keep the talent to myself... Keep the "shine" or gift that have been given to me to myself... Which I realise now is very selfish! I limit myself by my own standards and not anyone else.
The rest of the passage goes on to reveal that the master took away the money that he gave to the 3rd servant and gave it to the servants who have made more. This was a reflection of me at this very moment.
I have been trusted with something great, a big dream and a talent that I seem to hide away from the world. I realise from this passage that because I keep on hiding it, I may lose it! God might take it away from me because I'm not making anything from it... =(
My lesson: use your talents, maximise your potential, seek and chase your dream before your dream is taken away from you!
posted by tephiee @ 6:48 PM
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