Don't rush it! Take it sloowww...
At last Friday's service while I was listening to a powerful message by my local Pastor about God's Order, I got a poweerful revelation of my own that blew my mind away.
So you all probably know by now how much I "over-think" and "over-analayze" and "over-plan" things to the extent it drives me crazy! Particularly lately since I'm approaching the very last weeks of my uni life and soon to be heading into the "real world" of job hunting!
But in light of these mixed emotions and thoughts as I sat there at the service it was like as if a light was turned on in the midst of darkness, sunshine arose from the rain! The revelation was:
-don't rush God's vision to happen in your life!
-don't force it
-don't make a move until God instructs you!
-it is His plan for your life so let Him take care of HOW and WHEN it will happen!
This all translated to my present context to:
-I have to work in my field of communication after I graduate
-for His call of teaching kids and ministering will have it's own time
-He will open the door for it to happen
-His time is never too late!
I knew then that when I really seek earnestly for His Word and His will I will no longer live in confusement or fear! For He is my security and that's all I need for it says in Psalm 127:1
Unless the LORD builds the house,
its builders labor in vain.
Unless the LORD watches over the city,
the watchmen stand guard in vain.
It is GOD who makes sure every promise He has made to you will come to pass. So if you're questioning His plan for you, I offer these kind words to you: never doubt Him! He will surely make all His promises come true in your life!
What is on Steph's mind these days?
So last week while I was at Koorong Bookstore browsing around for gifts for my friend and aunt, I promised to myself that I would not buy any new books. I have like 10 books at home that I've either only partly read and not finush yet or even books I haven't read at all!!! But this was one promise I knew I couldn't keep.
I bought this amazing book titled: "The Deborah Company - becoming a woman who makes a difference" by Jane Hamon. It's such an inspirational and motivating book! I only started reading it last night and I'm already on chapter 5!!! I seriouslt couldn't put the book down.
It really opens up my perspective about my visions and dreams and how God will bring me to greater heights when I begin to trust and have faith in thr visions and dreams God has given me!
I'm so relieved and excited to have found a book that really speaks to my current situation! (Not saying the other books don't do this.)
After finally realising my vision and dream and God's purpose for my life, this book has come into my life at the right time to help me chase down and fulfill His vision and destiny for me!
So if you feel you're at this point too where you know your Godly vision and are ready to chase it down, read this book! It'll help you alot in giving confidence in realising that vision! =)
From mere 'existence' to now living the plan
I haven't been 'living' my days recently. I've merely 'existed.' I have lost my ways in confusement. But today after taking the time to sit and seek His Word and dwell in His presence God opened new revelations for me. They were: remember your interests. What initially interested you into media and communication? Know that through this you will know what you have to do. And when I sat down and thought about it I knew what I had to pursue and that was: advertising, marketing, information communication, market research. These are the things that interest me. Especially since I was at Insearch and doing the final project.
So now I know that my place is here in Sydney and to pursue something in communication and marketing. And after having a chat with my aunt I know that there are many options I can go: non-profit organisations because then I can use my skills and do good.
From frustration to clarity
The past week has been strange learning curve for me. From failing an assignment to getting a fine to being confronted as to what I have to do with my future. My aunt and uncle asked me what I was going to do after I come back from Indo. What career am I going to pursue? What's the Indo school project? What do I want to do?
After that I prayed and seeked His will. Out of my frustration I needed to find clarity. And I found clarity at church during the praise&worship. God spoke and said:
-I gave you the fine because you need to realise that you are no longer a student. And no longer being a student means you need to get serious and your act together in regards to your future.
-you have blurred vision after August because you need to sit down and dwell on My word and seek My will. Again remember what I have said to you on your birthday about sitting down and pondering My word and I will give you My visions.
-as we were singing a song about our city and how God has a purpose for everyone in their city. And God spoke to me through this song in that Sydney is my city. Steph you are not going anywhere. You have to do what you have studied and I will show you where to go to next. Yes Indo is part of your vision but it is not yout destination right now. Remember that you are originally sent to Indo in July by Me to search the city of Jakarta. Look at what needs to be done. Look at what can be changed and/or improved. He reminded me that Jakarta is now my destination now because there are people here in Sydney that need you.
So the lesson learnt here is that you grow and learn from experience. So don't run away from the experiences that are difficult. Face them head on with His Spirit and you'll surely be able to overcome.
Open your eyes mannnn....!!!
Just came home from an amazingly and electrifying church service!! We had an awesome speaker - Pastor Indri Gautama who really got me to see what God sees about visions and dreams and the future.
I really learnt alot from her teachings. I learnt alot about visions and about how they come about into our lives and how they are fulfilled.
I know that at the moment my focus is to sit down and to dwell in His words and seek His instructions. I know that at the moment I need to diligently seek Him so I know what I need to do next in particular about the school we're building in Jakarta.
I know that He has made me feel 'restless' and uncomfortable these past few weeks (as written in my previous post) because He wants me to just sit and read His words and find out what's "my next installment."
I was at work yesterday and towards the end of my shift I was sitting and just reading Jentzeen Franklin's book. I felt peace and calm and I knew that that was my place. I knew in my heart and in my spirit and mind that this 'restlessness' was only going to be calmed by filling my time and mind with His words and revelations.
So this weekend has been just that! At today's service I knew God was going to do something great with this school in Jakarta. I knew that it wasn't by my might but only by His will that great things are going to happen. So I'm going to hold onto that and run with it.
As I sat there in the service tonight I just really really asked Him to give me instructions, give me a 'picture' of what He wants from this school and what He wants to do with it. And this is what I got from Him:
-involve your Sunday School kids. Encourage and teach them about humanity and to give to others. Teach them to make things that can be useful for the school kids in Jakarta. Teach them compassion. Perhaps go into pen pals-write letters of encouragement to each other. Be creative in this area.
-involve particular friends who are already in Jakarta who maybe interested in this.
-bring exposure about disadvantaged kids from Jakarta to Sydney. Start laying the foundations of a relationship between these two countries and starting walking out the call God has over my life. (Refer to last year's January 2009 prophesies)
-involve your closest friends in this project.
-make videos of the kids in Jakarta, what their life is like and how we here in Sydney can be an impact.
-make a website. Use the things I've learnt and put it into bringing this vision and project to life.
-involve the teenagers at my local church and cell group mates to get involved in fundraising for money for the kids back in Jakarta. What we think is 'small' value here is worth quite more in Indonesia.
But most of all I learnt to open up my eyes and see the bigger picture! And Pastor Indri was encouraging us to let our minds be the platform of imagination where we let God draw in it what He wants through His word-the Bible.
I know that this is going to be tough but I believe in it so much that I'm not willing to let it go. You may ask 'so Steph what is it you're actually doing?' Well I'm co-investing in building a kindergarten school in one of the most poorest places in Jakarta. The school will cater education to the most poor of kids. This school will teach the kids not just exclusive Christianity principles but how to grow in Kindgom values and be an impact where ever you are no matter what your status is. I want the kids to learn that they are loved and they can love. That they are born to be a somebody. That they can be the change they want to see in this world.
And I know that in the days to come as I press more and more unto Him, He will make this vision more clearer and more sharper. And I'm excited!!!
SO guys, open up your eyes and start seeing the bigger picture. Know that you too are able to do anything when you just strip away your unbelief, let Him speak and receive it and run with it in the winddddddd....wwwwwhhhhhooooossshhh.....
